Some Inspiration Please...

I have lost my mojo! Okay I don't know if that is the correct word but that is what I told my friend today. She is one of a few who have hounded me the last few weeks about the lack of my brilliant writing. (Maybe I exaggerated the word brilliant but I know how they truly feel.) Truth be told I have sat at this same spot on the couch curled up with the same pillow glaring at this lap top too many times. I have started typing only to immediately follow it by my index finger hitting the delete button a million times. I am left at a blank...

This is the classic story of Kristie. I go full throttle with something and never finish it. NEVER!!!! I guess I figure if I can't give it my complete best then what is the point? However this should be different. This is like my personal journal for the world (my small but growing amount of viewers) to see and examine. So I shouldn't worry about using enough fancy words or the correct verse to describe my knowledge of God's word. Sometimes simplicity has more meaning than anything else. So here goes....Just a few random thoughts and feelings from the past few weeks to catch you and myself up with what is going on in my heart and soul.

Jocelyn turned 3. Instead of happiness and pride I find myself full of anxiety.

Nickolas started a small session of summer camp to get acclimated for K4 in the fall. Instead of happiness and pride I find myself full of worry and loss.

I am an emotional wreck. Every new stage of my children's life is a sign to me that they are growing up and each moment is flying by. Am I doing the best I can? Am I being the perfect mom for them?

I am in a rut at work and in my daily life. Everything is so routine and I lazily refuse to mix it up. I need to add a little spice.

Now that Phillip has a full 40hr week job, I feel like I have a roommate instead of a best friend/ husband. Our intimate times are few and far between.

Friends.....I don't even know what that word means anymore. Unless it involves my children, husband, or mother; I can't find valuable time for anybody else.

Complaints...complaints...complaints...I know...I know...I know...

Lack of God's word, lack of commitment to God, and lack of giving it ALL to God always leads to complaints. Always leads to anxiety, worry, loss, emotional wreckage, laziness, and distance from everyone else.

The ingredient missing in my life right now is none other than God!

I need to bury myself into His word and desperately plea with Him to reign me back in.

I have missed you all and promise to begin a fresh new start...

God bless to all of my faithful friends and followers....

"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God,the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."

Isaiah 40:28-31