Ahhhhhh if you don't hear anything then join the crowd. I am rejoicing in the noise of peace and tranquility. No loud kids or complaining husband. Just me, myself, and I.
Actually I am celebrating more than just the silence of my loud family. I am glowing in the presence of happiness. My family is happy. The Danciu household is having a good day!
Saying the past few months was a little stressful is quite simply a lie. This roof has sheltered a lot of laughter, few fevers (praises to God), many tickles, one too many timeouts, and a lot of worry.
My worry was about my family's happiness. I think as a mother, a wife, and as a best friend, we women spent an exorbitant amount of time wanting everyone around us to be happy. My fears the past few months revolved around my Philly not being happy. I have achieved a lot of great faith in the past years so I don't waste my time on the worry of money, food, clothes, and sickness.
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Matthew 6:33-34
I do concentrate a great amount of time on the happiness of my loved ones though. One of the things I have preached to many many many people about is if you can't be happy with yourself than you won't find happiness with anyone else. I knew that Phillip was starting to become very unhappy as he felt he was failing as the provider for his family. Did we ever do without? Absolutely not; however his lack of consistent income started to take a toll on his behaviors as a leader of this house. I like to think I am the fastest person who can spot depression and I know that I was seeing something starting to stir.
With that being said Phillip still did an amazing job at laughing with me every day and communicating his doubts and fears in his current employment. The only thing he never said which I knew he felt was, "I am not happy!" Men are actually quite smart and observant. Well at least more than we give them credit for. I think he knew if he actually said those words, me being a woman would automatically feel offended and try to reason what I did to make him unhappy. So he just decided to not even go there.
Just like with my children; I knew I had to give him daily support and affection even if there were times I didn't want to be the supportive one. There were times when I didn't want to be in the driver's seat. I would have much rather preferred passenger side with windows down. I mean I wanted to come home and he have taken the bulls by the horn. "Patience" is what I heard inside my soul every time I prayed about it or vented to someone about it.
An already long story short...Phillip was blessed with a new job. Something that happened so fast that in a matter of days our life was kind of turned upside down. It happened so fast that we didn't have time to question it or for me to make my typical list of likes and dislikes. We just jumped in faith first.
Last Thursday I receive a short but sweet text from my Philly. "I am so happy right at this moment. Praise to God and thankfulness for you believing in me all the way through."
....and now the worry has faded and I have my silly singing voices in command of my thoughts once again. The great glory goes to God for once again lifting our marriage up in a semi-turbulent time. He is so good all the time.
God reward us in our own time. Not His time. I truly believe that. There is a lesson to be learned from every problem no matter how big or how small. We just have to be ready to receive the blessing. What I mean by our time and not His is that God loves us so much that He would overflow us with showers of blessings constantly if He thought we could receive them with an open heart. He wouldn't let worry and fear factor in to our daily lives. We will have to wait until our life in Heaven to experience that kind of unfailing love because right now He knows our hearts are jaded and sinful and prideful and full of selfishness. We tend to feed on the hurt rather than grow through the light.
I pray that you don't let worry boggle you down into a deep pit of depression. Trust me it gets you absolutely nowhere. I daily pray for all of you and lift you up to God as your intercessory. Just like I believe my Philly would pull through; I also believe that you will find happiness also. That happiness only comes in the belief and knowledge of Jesus Christ; the Son of God who died on the cross for our sins and through faith in Him anything is possible. Praise be to God!!!!
"Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?"
Luke 12:24-26
God bless to all of my faithful friends and followers...
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