Anything for you...

Oh my dear sweet Jocie...Her 3rd birthday is drawing near and of course as most young children do we have the birthday party conversation daily.
Where is your party going to be at?
What kind of cake do you want?
What do you want for your birthday?
Usually these answers are completely random and scattered so far apart that is doesn't make sense.
I want a beach party at the beach with a girl pink cake and I want crayons for a present!
Okay????
So I was surprised when last week I received a new answer for all three and it all coordinated.
Mommy I want a my party to be at a horse patchure (pasture) with a pink horsie cake and I want horsie lessons for my present.
Okay!!!!
As a mom you instantly think okay so how am I gonna make this happen. Then reality hits in. My daughter is 3 and there is no way she is getting horsie lessons. Cute idea though.
It was in the next instant I remembered my own childhood. When I was 6 to the age of 8 all I wanted in the entire world was to ride a horse...well maybe a pony. I remember my step-father promising we would go. I waited every almost every summer Saturday for two years and never even came close to a horse. So many excuses and not enough time to list them. I was broken hearted but wow how long I held onto that dream.
Now more than ever I want her to have her lessons but still...ONLY 3!!!
So many times I lift up these crazy "wants" to my God. Oh please God just let me have this. Sometimes they are so random and other times they make perfect sense. To me they make perfect sense.
I can almost see it now. My Father hearing our pleas and for one second wanting to give into us. That is what parents do! They want to give their children everything they desire.
"Sure my child you want this man to love you. It will be done!"
"Yes my beautiful unique design if you want lots of money than I shall bestow it upon you!"
"Of course you can have this job that you know will make you happier than anything else can!"
Thankfully He doesn't give in that instant. Thankfully our path has already been laid out with the most careful consideration and the deepest concern to our well being.
"Oh dear child LOVE me. Let me fill your heart!"
"My love let me fill every desire so full they shall be that no earthly riches could ever measure up!"
"I am the Way, the Truth, and the Light! NOTHING else can replace me!"
You see there was a reason for me never getting to have my own lessons. I am not sure of the reason but I don't doubt it is a valid one. It could be so I learn to never disappoint my child with false promises or my clumsy self could have fallen right off and broken every bone in my body. There was a reason!
I have a prayer right now that I have been praying for everyday for the past two weeks. Nothing....Not even a glimpse! Why??? Is it frustrating? Of course! Should I give up? Depends. What does the answered prayer give me? Does it bring me closer to God or will it fill my heart up with more faith in my Father? Well if my faith was overflowing I wouldn't pray for one particular thing so hard, right? "Your will be done."
So I am starting to understand that constantly praying for this is just building up anxiety and making me doubt less in the True One.
It will happen and I don't mean my answered prayer; I mean God's WILL!!!
The casual conversation with Him takes precedence over the short "Please God let this happen! Amen!" It WILL all come together.
Lesson learned over the years? HE DOES NOT FAIL!!!! No matter the joy or the heartbreak HE is the same Almighty Powerful Loving Father! He does not fail me!!! I am always better off.
Yes He would do anything for me and for you. Luckily though His anything is the same as His everything and that is His life for ours.
How can a failed relationship, a lack of money, or an unanswered prayer pail in comparison? They just simply don't. Not when you make your number one priority to being intimate with the Lord Almighty.
Yes I would love to be able to grant Nickolas and Jocelyn every single wish. I love more the idea of them knowing that in the end their mother was always there beside them during the good and the bad. I want to say to them "Anything for you my dear child" yet I am going to choose to say "Everything for you my dear child....is in the arms of your everlasting Father!"

"Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

Philippians 4:5-7

God bless to my faithful friends and followers...