Regrets...Any?

How many regrets do you have? Mine are too many to list and some too embarrassing to mention. Would I change any of them though? Actually I wouldn't change a whole lot of them. I think you learn more from mistakes than successes. There are a few that I would change and they are actually ones that I find the most difficult too fix. I don't regret a bad relationship choice or losing a job. I find that when the result is someone hating me and me hating myself then yeah I wish I could change that. If you know me very well then you know I am weirdly obsessed with death. I don't fixate on what happens to me when I die. The love of God for me has sealed that fate. Rather I wonder about those who will be left behind. How will they deal with the loss of me and how will they grieve? I also wonder about the ones who might say, "Good ridden.". Oh yes there might be a few of those. You see besides my arrogance as a big flaw, I am horrible when it comes to judgement. I mean I should just be the jury and judge most of the time. I can judge people in a heartbeat and I can be very vindictive when laying down the sentence. In the past I have said some pretty harsh things and ruined some pretty amazing relationships. I have actually avoided major events in fear that someone who has received my wrath will approach me. Now you would wonder what have these people done? Some were victims of a divorce, some I felt wronged me personally in their behavior, and some were just plain victims of me thinking I was holier than them. That actually doesn't even matter. What matters is my attitude and the things I have to answer for before I can even think about walking through those pearly gates. Just this week one of my "victims" reached out to me through the wonderful world of facebook. I was shocked to see that this individual wanted to befriend me but I humbly accepted and immediately apologized to her for my actions. I mean it was 10 years ago but I have felt horrible about it ever since. She graciously accepted. Now while we may only be "Facebook friends" and heck may never talk again, at least I can let that part of me go. One regret taken care of and now only 999,999 to go! You see I want people to see and remember the best of me. I don't want to be remembered for my appearance ***chuckle****, smile, how hard I worked, or even if I was a good wife and mom. I want them to know without a doubt that God will be pleased to accept me into His glorious kingdom the minute I take my last breath. I don't want people to grieve for me. I want them to rejoice in the knowledge I am going home to my Maker. I don't want anyone left to wonder "What if?" when it comes to my salvation. We lose ourselves so easily in this crazy hectic scary world. Imagine if we recreate ourselves on a daily basis to be more Christ like. We so take for granted that every day brings a new chance to say "Do over" and start again. Recognize your flaws and adjust your attitudes. Instead of judgement mix in a large dose of forgiveness and acceptance in your life. I would have to scrape myself off of the floor if God yelled and disgraced me every time I wrongly did something. Thankfully we have a loving Father who would rather forgive our sins so He can focus on us as His children. Do you need to say your sorry? Is their someone out there who has been in your thoughts and in your heart. Reach out to them before it is too late. You don't have to reestablish a relationship but what a burden off of your heart to let something troubling you become free. Release the weight and ease the pain. Learn from lessons and become like new every single day. God Bless to all of my faithful friends and followers.
2 Corinthians 7:9-11
yet now I am happy, not because you were made sorry,
but because your sorrow led you to repentance.
For you became sorrowful as God intended and so were not harmed in any way by us.
Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret,
but worldly sorrow brings death.
See what this godly sorrow has produced in you: what earnestness,
what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, what readiness to see justice done.
At every point you have proved yourselves to be innocent in this matter.