Once again I end my night wondering if I failed as a mommy. Now don't feel sorry for me because I know I am pretty good rockin' mom but just feeling like I let my children down tonight. I got home, cleaned house, talked to hubby, acknowledged the kids, fed the kids, and then we really didn't connect until around bed time. Isn't that sad? We had a great bed time with barrels of laughter and many songs. Now in the silence of bedtime I keep asking, "Gosh what else would I have done different?" Gee I wouldn't have focused on texting, facebooking, and TV watching. My kids are really lucky compared to what other kids are having to be subjected to now a days. That isn't enough though. They deserve more. Our life together means more than just a few happy moments a day. It is so hard though to get my selfish tendencies out of the way. I mean it is a new attitude adjustment every day. Sometimes it works and sometimes I fail miserably. For example like today. You know the great thing though? My kids love for me never changes or diminishes. So I can fail but they still love me. Sound familiar? Oh that is right. Our Father is exactly the same way. Isn't it amazing the similarity between the love of your children and the love of your God? Their love is both so strong, ever lasting, and resilient. There are days when I am devoted to Him the whole entire day. I start with my Bible, I pray fervently, I open my heart to Him, and end the day with my Bible. Then there are days when I text, facebook, and watch TV. Yeah I suck. I am so in awe though that my kids and my God give me a clean slate everyday. I can start a new and be forgiven for what happened or didn't happen the day before. That is true and pure love and I am a blessed woman. I am just proud that I keep having the drive and desire to be better each day. So many parents and children of God think they reach a point where all can't be forgiven. They have taken so many wrong turns that one right won't make it right. Well they are wrong and they shouldn't give up. They fail themselves, their children, and their God. Please pray that I one day will get on the right path and never look back. I just can't be one of those moms that fail my kids. I pray that every little sleeping angel tonight wakes up in the morning to a mother and/or father that attempts to be better. I pray that every single person tonight wakes up in the morning with the burning fire of The Holy Spirit in their soul and a new found dedication to God. God bless to all of my faithful friends and followers.
Psalm 119:104-106
I gain understanding from your precepts; therefore I hate every wrong path.
Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path.
I have taken an oath and confirmed it, that I will follow your righteous laws.
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