So the past few weeks have been pretty stressful. Our dear Jocelyn has been, sorry was, sick the past few weeks. Praise to God for everyone who has helped pray her back to a healthy and happy recovery. It appears she had the flu that then turned to pneumonia before we could even blink. It also didn't help that things at work weren't too great either. Well let me take that back. Things at work were great until Friday evening. If you have been a faithful follower you know that I lost a job over a year ago. It was a bad experience but I learned quite a lot because of it so I am not regretful. I learned that my humility needed to be in check. So with this job I have tried very carefully to keep my ego pretty much tied up and not let loose. Now without being conceited I honestly have to admit that I have done a pretty good job. I try to make sure that all my I's are dotted and T's are crossed. Over the past few weeks some things have gone in between the cracks but every instance was when I was not there. So you would think these "mistakes" would be blamed on the actual people responsible. Well I assumed that until Friday evening. I was confronted by my manager about this and she felt they were things that should have been under my control whether it be through proper training of staff or just being a better manager. Now she wasn't mean and it didn't result in anything that warranted me getting in trouble but it was an uncomfortable conversation. Needless to say I was not happy when I got home. I think I moaned and groaned to Phillip for three hours about it. I had to check and recheck my ego about a thousand times. So on Sunday morning at the crack of dawn after two sleepless nights I was left with a nagging question. What now????? So I thought do I check face book or read the Bible? Probably 8 times out of 10 I would have chosen face book but the Holy Spirit called to me and I picked up my dusty Bible. I read most of Acts. Now I didn't get a huge insight or an "Aha" moment but I did learn a lot and was able to focus more on the history of Peter and John. I also focused for the first time about Stephen. Stephen is described in Acts 6:8 as "a man full of God's grace and power, did great wonders and miraculous signs among the people." In Acts 7 Stephen addressed the Sanhedrin after being falsely accused or blasphemy against Moses and God. Stephen pretty much recited all of the biggest events in the bible in a few short verses just to prove a simple point. Every great man of God was persecuted by small men who claimed to be first in line to receive God's word and truth. Stephen was stoned in the end but his words live on.
Now what does this have to do with my dilemma you ask? Absolutely nothing but it did get my mind off of my pointless problems. I can't take the views of somebody else with me for the rest of my life. I can only start a new day trying my hardest to prove my worth to myself and to God. Now I will definitely work harder, keep a positive attitude, and try to avoid another uncomfortable conversation. I won't keep bad feelings festering inside and I won't try to bring the world down with me. Taking in God was the best thing to let all the bad stuff go. There just isn't room for everything inside of me. I choose to let the light of God in and let the darkness of anger and hurt out.
How long does it take you to let something go? A few hours, a day, until you talk to someone, or does it never really leave? Does it just cling on to all the other yucky parts until before you know it you have a clogged heart? Give it God. This is what He wants. He wants to be that person whom you talk to first when you need someone. Thank you God for giving me words to learn and live by. Words that lift me up and keep me motivated. God bless to all of my faithful friends and followers...
Acts 4:12
Salvation is found in no one else,
for there is no other name under heaven
given to men by which we must be saved."
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