I must not give up!

So two months into the "life change" and I totally suck! Only 10 lbs. lost and 2 gained this week. GGRRR! No excuses or crazy things happening in my life. Just as usual I get way too excited about something and give up after a week or two. Please tell me there is somebody else out there like that?. I thought publicizing my new venture of losing weight would help but unfortunately at this point it hasn't. Phillip has been good as to not say I told you so but I am not sure how much he believed in it to begin with. Can't blame him though. He adores me without a doubt in my mind so he probably thinks I am just making things more complicated then they need to be. I do have a bad history of getting pumped up about something and then quickly falling of the band wagon. I don't know why this is but it is a repetitive characteristic of mine. Started with journals of myself. (Lasted about 6 months) Move on to losing weight, riding a bicycle, reading a book a month, daily bible studies, losing weight, talk to each one of my friends once a week, losing weight, so on and on and on. I think you get the idea. I thought my pact with "M" and us doing this together would be very helpful but that only lasted maybe a good two weeks. So what has happened? I have pondered it for awhile and strangely the reason this time (besides lack of exercise) is my failure to God. Amazingly I have still kept a good food routine. No fries, no caffeine drinks (okay I do have my Sunday after nap one), no late dinners, and all of the other rules I gave myself. This time I kept to that schedule which is a first for me. The one thing that was different was I gave it to God at first and then like everything else I take it back. I prayed to God and asked Him to be in charge of this. Let's face it I am juggling so many balls in the air right now that I can't handle anything else. So why not let God help me out a little? I mean no matter what you put in front of Him, He can handle it. Amazing. So I did. Every morning I was on my knees with my daily prayer of support for myself and "M". I had continual conversations with Him through out the day thanking him for helping me make right choices. So why all of a sudden did I think I could just take those balls in the air back? Guess what happened? Ker plunk...All of them.
So now that I have made this realization I am back on this "life change" path. This time I won't feel alone or abandoned half way through because God is with me all day every day. So here I go again on a new journey. Thankfully my partner this time is someone who won't be mad if I fail because He knows all of my faults before I begin. Thanks to all of you for your support and questions about "M" and I. Let's try this thing again.....
God bless to all of my faithful friends and followers.
Deuteronomy 20:3-4
He shall say: "Hear, O Israel, today you are going into battle against your enemies.
Do not be fainthearted or afraid; do not be terrified or give way to panic before them.
For the LORD your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory."